5 years, 10 months and counting...

Hello blog...

It's been sooo long since I last blogged. Today is my baby and moi monthly anniversary. I think it's great we wish each other every month and wish each other the best. Just to spice up things. You know what I mean. Hanging to each other for more than 5 years is really hard. It needs hard work and patience and of course endless love. What?? Bunyi poyo cm youtube shila amzah but well it's true. lol.

I miss my baby already. Wish we could get married asap. But study and family always comes first for us. So, 3 more years to go. Fuhh. Lame tuuu. As one always says huhuh.

Well, I've got news. I'm now doing my practical in Inokom Corporation Sdn. Bhd. and am living with my sweet2 grandma for a while. Work is so tiring but I should not give up. The pros is I can learn loads of things from my seniors there. And the cons is too many guys and that made me not comfortable. I never dig those things. But thank god there's hardly guys in my office. Pheww. Suka2.

I work from 8 a.m till 7 p.m every day. Man they should give me some allowances. Maybe some that can cover my duet minyak to work. The seniors there are so good to me and that made me feel right at home. Definitely love that.

And now I'm staying nearer to S so that's definitely a pros heheh.

and now the picture of my workplace...

Inokom

Miss you S....

Happy anniversary.

Love you to the moon and back.

Till then.

XOXO

   

Day 3 & 4

Dear Blog,

       I'm just not feeling on writing anything. I just feel teruk yang teramat sangat. I just want everything to end in good terms. I feel empty. I'm just so grateful to Allah SWT to make me stronger this time. Although am not that strong but I definitely get through this. I can feel it in my bones that it's gonna happen. But I really hope that it's not. And I hope my doa to HIM will be dimakbulkan. I am hoping, praying and doa so hard. That's what she said.

       She doesn't know if she should call and convince him or should she give him time. Kalaw diam macam wat salah tapi if she actually contact him takut kaco pulak. Dah jadi macam stranger. Once they were everything to each other and when she did that they were like strangers.

Whatever it is she just hope he'll be fine. My doa will always be with him.

Love is patient. Love you.    

Day 2

Dear moi darling blog,

             I need someone to be there for me again. She told me things again. Hari ni rase macam panjang sangat. She just can't bear it. Can't sleep. Can't eat. Can't even think straight. The only she can do is pray to Allah SWT to be strong to face this test. She recite Al-Quran and doa so that she can pull herself together. That's all she can do for now.

              Her housemates are like her savers. Everytime she's termenung they will try to make her laugh. So untung maa dapat housemate cenggitu. She just don't know whats gonna happen if she's all alone. At night, she cried herself to sleep. Cry is all she can do.

             She really wants to pick up the phone and call him or text him. Just to say ' I miss you so much yg'
or 'I just hope we can be like before' or just a not so simple 'I LOVE YOU sayang' that means so much. But she can't. Although she loves him so much. So much yang sampai orang laen takkan paham. She has to live with the consequences. Need to give him all the time he's gonna need. This time although the future is not looking so good, she needs to put and try her best to make him happy for the last time. Sad but true.

              I think he's happy today because he doesn't have to think of her. If it kills her inside, she just hope that he is at peace. For a second, she thought, I'm sorry.

Heart beats fast,
colours and promises,
How to brave,
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall,
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow,
One step closer.
I have died everyday waiting for you,
And I have loved you for all our times.

(sounds childish with the lyrics and all but that's what the heart is saying right now)

Till then.

       

Day 1

Dear blog,

          From today onward I'm going to just mumbling and talking peliks things. Because you are the only one I'm going to have, supporting and understands me. Today I'm gonna tell you about a girl...na'ah a lady kot who did an awful thing. So awful that even she can't forgive herself. She's writing because she can't get through without her other half even for one day. Ni kan pulak her whole life without him. Thinking and thinking about the feelings of losing him, she just died inside slowly. The housemates just kept telling her you've changed. And it is not good. They even joke about sending her to the hospital and definitely not the kind with actual sick people. Hahah very funny la you guys. Tanjung Rambutan pulak dahhh. And in class she just felt so lost. Tried to focus as hard as she can. She's just lost. She just felt the need to go home and meet her parents and cry to ummi.

          How is she ever going to get the real forgiveness. I say never. Find someone that loves you is as hard as it can be. But keeping the love intact is the hardest. To jaga hati dia and end up to hurt him even more was the worst thing she did.  Blaming herself is not gonna take her anywhere. I'm afraid for her. Hope her Iman can take care of her well. You know what she told me. She can't take everything back. I mean what she did. Making other people miserable because of you is the worst feeling ever.

           She never wanted to be selfish. So she decided to redha although her heart is not accepting it yet or in my opinion she's never going to accept it. I just hope both of them will get through. I hope he will be happy. Find a nice girl and get married and be happy forever. Although she'll die inside but his happiness will always be her main concern. Penting sangat. She will NEVER move on normally. She rather die of heartbroken rather than watch her guy live with his heart broken.

            She felt so bad that no tears can't come out of her eyes anymore. She is so sorry of what she did that she felt sorry for being sorry. That was how sorry she was. Although how hard she wanted to fight for him, she's afraid that she's going to hurt him again. That thought almost killed her. She just felt he is so kind and definitely the perfect guy for her but Allah SWT is the One that planned her life. Sume yang terjadi ade hikmah. So she just gonna wait and see what's gonna happen.And redha and be thankful because she always believe what Allah SWT plan will be the best plan for her.

            Even the housemates asked her to be optimistic. Maybe this is a way for her to change without going back this time. Although she's not 'curang' or anything as bad as that, lie is bad enough. Maybe Allah SWT wants to save her from doing other terrible things. She's trying the hardest and hope that they were all true. Everything happens for a reason. She pray so hard that everything will be okay eventually. 1 week, 1 month, 1 year alone or her whole life alone, she's going to endure it. No matter what. But for now she's going to fight for him with all the strength she has or even more. I just don't want any regrets. Fight for my love ones is what he taught me.

Hope things will work out..    



  

Finance...

This is taken from one of Malaysia's finance blog that is seriously really funny definition for financial jargon. As I'm a finance student and man i think it is hilarious!!!lol...

EBITDA
Earnings Before I Tricked the Dumb Auditor

EBIT
Earnings Before Irregularities and Tempering

Brainstorming
Same as blame-storming, trying to attribute blame for mistakes

Management Consultant
Someone who tells you how to improve your business, something he/she cannot do or has never been able to do themselves

Top-Down Investing
People with a bit of economics knowledge but scared shitless about accounting

Bottom-Up Investing
People who knows a bit about accounting but hates fiction

Unusual Market Activity
Something the management and directors always know NOTHING about

Averaging Down Investing
When you totally ignore the fact that you were wrong in the first instance

Doubling Up Investing
Making doubly sure that you are more than fully-invested when the stock eventually tanks

Multi-tasking
Doing more than one useless activity at the same time, better known as multi-slacking

CEO
Chief Embezzlement Officer

CFO
Chief Fraud Officer

LIFO & FIFO
An investment bank hiring/firing policy

Second Board
What Second Board???

CV
The art of pushing optimism and white lies to the max

Margin Account
Shorter rope, tighter noose

Paradigm Shift
Your job in the financial markets is in jeopardy

Hedge Funds
"Institutionalised" margin accounts

Drill-down / Granularity
Words managers learn to use to enslave their subordinates

NAV
Normal Andersen Valuation

NPAT
Never Pay Any Tax

EPS
Eventual Prison Sentence

Don't Reinvent The Wheel
A person who does not know how the wheel was invented in the first place

Net Net
When you have a manager doing a presentation trying to bastardise the English language

Federal Reserve Board
Bank of Japan on Prozac

Thinking Outside The Box
You just want to leave the meeting room and chill because no one has been able to offer any constructive ideas

Equity Research
As useful as a used condom

Equity Analysts
Hopes no one discovers how average they are

Fund Managers
Sponges off the brains of analysts and strategists and call it their own

Chartists & Rocket Scientists With Trading Programs
People who have given up trying to understand the stock markets

Short Term Investor
Someone who is in-and-out within 3 days or less

Long Term Investor
A short term investor who cannot get out profitably after 3 days

Bull Market
A random market movement causing an investor to mistake himself for a financial genius

Bear Market
A 6 to 18 month period when the kids get no allowance, the wife gets no jewellery, and the husband gets no sex

Off Balance Sheet Items
More important than items in the balance sheet, and represent things that really should be in the balance sheet

Service Level Agreement
It means there will be no service follow up, we are just covering our ass here

Unemployment Office
A placement office for humanities graduates

Momentum Investing
The fine art of buying high and selling low with the crowd

Value Investing
The fine art of buying low and selling lower

Core Competencies
Phrase you use when you have no idea what a company's or a person's strengths and weaknesses are

P/E ratio
The percentage of investors wetting their pants as the Market keeps crashing

Big Picture
You are just imagining the same meeting with the same people on a movie screen

Stock Broker
Poorer than you were last year

Remisier
Someone who should have kept their previous job

Investor Protection
Padded walls in broking halls

Market Correction
The day after you buy stocks

Cash Flow
The movement your money makes as it disappears down the toilet

Institutional Investor
Past year investor who is now locked up in a nuthouse

Two Week Holidays
Taken by employees who are oblivious to whether their jobs will still be there by the time they return

Economist
Someone who tells you why their predictions went wrong after every quarter, and proceeds to give a confident prediction for the next 3 quarters

really funny aite??
till the next post...

Busy Meee

I’ve been so busy with final exams so I’ve forgot you my dear blog. I’m deeply sorry. But something happened today. I just got off the phone with hubbs. He gave me a few advices. And I really do not ever want to forget about it. So I figure writing to you will help me.

I did something today. And it was wrong and hubbs was so upset and I felt awful about it. I’m sorry. I don’t intend to hurt you. It was my way of speaking to you and not thinking how it will reflect my identity as a Muslim woman like me. I should think before speaking to others especially to hubbs and my family. As a Muslim woman it is a must to ensure that my way of life is according to Islam and not talking whatever I want and like.

Hubbs advised to try my best to change the way I spoke to other people. Don’t talk rubbishly just so that it will be easier to mingle with my friends because he said friends will always accept me as I am (Rubbishly.. is that even a word heheh). I always look up to him. Whatever he said has always been so mature and very true. From now onwards I have to learn to speak politely to everyone. Although it seems cocky to speak politely but I think good behavior will always come from the way you live your life. If I change it I think I can be a better Muslimah in the future ahead.

He adds that I really need to take care of my aurat and my dignity as a Muslimah. No tight clothes. My behavior in terms of ‘everything’ need to be changed.

I really want to listen this time so this is what I’m doing. I’m going to challenge myself to be a better Muslimah. Although it will be a little hard for me but this time I’m going to do this for me. I want to change for my own good. And that advice is of course came from hubbs. I don’t know what I’m gonna do or be without him. But first something need to be taken care off.

Thank you so much for caring sayang.

Tomorrow will be a big day for you.

Good luck abang.

My doa' will always be with you.

Location: Pantai Merdeka

xoxo - Amal ‘Izzah - xoxo

When clock srtuck 12...

I think hard.

Really hard.

And I made you this.

Happy 5th Anniversary

5 years down an eternity more to go.

I love you Mohd Noor Hisyam.

With all my heart.

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2007 - 2012

Lots and lots and lots of LOVE

From me,

amal 'izzah binti mohd ghazali